GACC2007: Think Again

Lol politics.

Sad yes, but being committee actually means you can’t enjoy the event most of the time. I’m glad for you that at the least this year you got to meet and bring the seiyuu around, I think it’s well worth the work you’ve done.

P.S. Sorry for ninja’ing Furuya last year :P.

Perhaps, its time that you leave the club.

Edo: Maybe not. I’m still going to stay in club a bit longer. Not after seeing “these” kind of people in the club.

First of all, I would like to apologize for making you apologize like that. I had no idea that you went through the same thing last GACC, and now I feel kinda bad about putting things so harshly. I already explained to you outside the meeting that I shouldn’t have did that in public but rather talk to you privately, and yeah, I really apologize for not thinking your feelings through when I made that statement.

But yeah, before all of that, let me tell you why I made that statement (and the demand, if you want to call it so). I had originally no intention of saying something like that, and I had no intention whatsoever of humiliating you. I made that statement not in defense of Amber, nor to let everyone else know what she went through. Let me now explain why I said something like that.

I’ve had my fair share of emcee-ing before, and I know sometimes just how great the pressure can be, and at the ‘spur of the moment’, as you call it, it’s easy to make mistakes. I’ve been through it before, and although you made a pretty big mistake by giving in to the pressure then, I understand your situation and I can’t really say I blame you for doing it.

What really made me raise up my hand and say what I did was your reluctance to apologize for that. The way you talked about the whole incident was as if it was a very ‘tak apa’ incident, and you didn’t do anything wrong. You said things like “Yeah, so I did help someone get an autograph. So?”, which IMO was very arrogant, and disrespectful to those other committees who followed your orders to NOT go and get autographs. If you had said something like “Yeah, I know I screwed up by doing that, I’m sorry guys. But then you see, the pressure on me at that moment was very great, and I just gave in in the end. It was a very ‘spur of the moment’ thing…”, then I would have definitely been on your side. When Khurshid was defending you, I raised my hand and said I agreed! Because I know just how demanding some people can be, and it’s not exactly easy to say no while you’re being pressured, while it’s easier to just pass it to the seiyuu to sign and get over with it. That’s why, if you had just rephrased your words and showed a little bit more remorse, I definitely wouldn’t have said something like that.

But (pardon me for being blunt), you didn’t. You treated the whole incident as if it was nothing much, and that kinda pissed me off. I don’t mean to sound disrespectful here, but as an emcee, it’s natural that people have their eyes on you, which is why you should have been extra careful NOT to do anything that may have tarnished the club/GACC’s name. I don’t know the exact figures, but apparently some people are complaining that emcees helped certain people get autographs, and that was pretty unfair to the people who went through hell just to get the seiyuu tickets. A blunder like this made by any other committee would have been bad enough, but since you’re the emcee, with literally thousand of eyes upon you, the severity of such an act just increased ten fold. It’s not a simple “tak apa” incident, it’s actually quite a big thing to be honest.

But I digress. As I stated above, I know how easy it is to give in to pressure, and yeah, you made a mistake. With all due respect, was it really so hard to just APOLOGIZE once for it? I was watching you defend yourself the whole time, and not once did you mention you made a mistake, and offered an apology. If you had just simply said “Sorry guys, I screwed up a bit” or something like that, I would have definitely NOT said something like that. But you didn’t. You kept defending yourself as if it was nothing huge. And that was too much for me.

I’m not saying that I’m totally right for stating that out in the middle of the post-mortem, or demanding an apology like that either. Yes, it was very rash of me to do so, and if I offended you, hurt your ego or humiliated you, I’m truly sorry. I swear that wasn’t my intention. What I really wanted was for you to realize how bad the situation actually was, and how some committee members were affected by it. I know I shouldn’t have made such a statement in public, or forced you to make a public apology. I’m really sorry for not thinking things through too carefully. I apologized to you once right after (once my head was working correctly again I guess), and now I’m apologizing to you again, for being too rash and emotional. If there is a chance, I would like to apologize to you in front of the whole committee for saying and demanding something like that, without thinking about your feelings. I’m sorry.

You don’t have to publish/allow this reply. I just wanted to make things clear for you that I wasn’t trying to humiliate you or anything. I’m sorry if I hurt your feelings, but please try to understand where I’m coming from okay?

Sincerely sorry,
Guan Da

Edo: In the midst of everything, I did said sorry liek MULTIPLE times like I stated in the post. Again, MULTIPLE times. But seriously, you guys are blinded with bashing me up. Anyway, I wasn’t pissed with you much since you sincerely went out and talk to me personally to settle things up. Unlike others, who kept on enjoying to see me apologizing *slash* humiliating me over and over and over and over and over again. It feel like the only one who heard my apology was Khurshid and Siraj, although Siraj just had to make fun of my apology. And I’m not so stupid to defend myself when it comes to this situation. I’m a guy to give out apologies like free water without defending myself at times because most people are blind fucks who can’t rethink the situation over and over again. It only take less than 10 seconds for me to apologize back to Khurshid after I screamed at him. If I suck, I admit I suck. If I’m wrong, I admit I’m wrong. But even if after I admit that I’m wrong and you guys STILL wanna push me, WHAT ELSE could they ask for? My excuse of why I suck? You want my defense over something that I can’t defend? It’s just plain stupid. It’s just PURE FUN to see me trying to defend myself over something I can’t defend. A simple sincere sorry is not good enough? And yes, I DID say sorry and apologized, it’s just that you guys WANT MORE. Now you wanna piss me off by saying that you didn’t hear me making an apology? Izzit? You want more, izzit? Fine.

Again, this whole post it’s not really about Amber’s case. I’m just telling you what happened to me last year, and targeted to those BLIND DUMB FUCKS who had fun with me during the post-mortem.

*giving edo an imaginary cotton candy*

=)

As someone who has been in MMU for a long time [cough] and have been observing Emina activities in both campuses over the past couple of years, and also as your fellow president – I understand your anguish.

When I first heard about the drama, the whole time I was thinking ‘Oh, Edo has had enough nonsense already that he’s not gonna care what anyone is gonna say anymore’. Somehow, reading you pour your heart out like this, I just can’t help but smile because I understand your feelings very well.

Next time you drop by KL or Cyber, I’ll be sure to catch you and buy you a drink or something.

But, undoubtly, the security this year really did a good job. It might look like the security didn’t do a good job to the public, but this is completely wrong, I can assure you that.

I will say this: I loved GACC’s security. Really loved it. They were everywhere and your people were VERY polite especially when I was rushing them collecting my small bag at storage. I kesian Yuhi a bit though. His face full of pimples from the stress of managing security. :3

you guys fail me… wat’s the point of making a superbly great event bt in the end lose all the friendship u had for the pass few months or maybe years? Event over everyone happy coz it’s finally over and it was a blast u guys shud go celebrate instead of blaming each other 4 all the same things dat happened. everything happens 4 a reason life’s unfair and cruel it’s a fact.

hi. i hope that i will not make the world go against me after reading my comment here, but i think it’s better for everyone to get the whole picture before having more shooting and personal assaults. never the less, i have a feeling this won’t get pass the moderation but anyhow, i just want you to read this edo :)

First, many might not know but as a director of such a great event once, i know the pressure is immense and nerve breaking, not to mention to live with it for more than hell-bent tormenting 6 months after conceiving the proposal of the event. This is where other high committees come in, supporting each other through out suffering moments and blissfully rejoicing on every small bits of good news/sponsors achieved after too much futile attempts. This is what i have been through, and i’m glad that i had everyone i ever needed to back me up, relentlessly and unflinchingly. GACC’07 was made possible with everyone working hand in hand, despite all our teeth clenching mistakes and omnipresent communication errors.

What about GACC’08? All i can say, from an outsider’s point of view, is that everyone’s happy with the event flow, the fun filled activities and of course, the seiyuu appearance. Who doesn’t love D BLEACH japanese seiyuu from JAPAN? well, he’s so great that the special appearance can really cover all the mistakes throughout GACC’08. Yes, every event has its own glitches, just a matter of the difference in magnitude of it. I’m sure the post postmortem already cover all those mistakes, but still, i need to tell you sth, edo.

You need to be more respectful to people around you, especially your own committees. I do not know exactly what has gone wrong, but when a person apologize, one have to do it sincerely, not giving the air of ‘i’m sorry, so what?’ that kind of attitude will not gain any forgiveness, but only loathe. The amount of times you apologize does not equal the sincereness of your heart. from the way i see you apologize in this blog, you are trying to fend off the said parties with your amount of ‘sorry’s like trying to swat off flies using the fly swatter called ‘sorry’.

Why does everyone kept on pressing you when you have already apologized? let me tell you one possible reason; it is because they do not see that you understand your mistakes and they do not have faith in you to turn over a new leaf. as again, i am in no position to know what happen within, or to judge you, but from the way you acted during GACC, especially when announcements are made regarding committees having to come forward, and after gacc is finished, the way you ‘usher’ the remaining crowd out of the hall sounds really disrespectful to the subject of your announcement. I may think that you are really stressed out, but anyhow that do not justify your lashing your anger/frustration on other people.

Everyone makes mistakes. Apologizing knowing your own fault is what everyone should do, but it’s better to know the aftermath of the mistake, understand the seriousness of the consequences and make ammends for it, in whatever ways you think plausible and learn not to repeat the mistake again, however trivial you think it is. The point here is to make yourself standing below, or at least at par with the person you are apologizing with, instead of being a higher up superior, demanding for forgiveness because it’s such a small thing or the wrongs you did, in your opinion, was more trivial than stepping on an ant. Again, your perspective does not equal the whole world’s point of view, so there will always be things you overlooked and small matters to you may mean the end of the world, especially when you are under the lime light.

I am a little bit disappointed when you decided to bring all these internal conflicts up online, but well this is your blog so you should have the freedom to express your feelings. One thing though, I think some one else has more rights to complain if she wanted to. Tell me, who’s the one who find all the sponsors? who’s the one who dealed and negotiated with the seiyuu coming over? who’s the one who did all the venue, equipments booking and vendors negotiations? i know you are in the designs and deco throughout the birth of GACC, and we are grateful for that. But seriously, you have got everything crucial done by everyone else, i do think you should have done more to qualify for the huge amount of complains i see here. Do you know why i never write about GACC’07? It’s because i’m just glad that it’s over and i do not want bloodsheds happen after the postmortem. Friends remained friends after gacc ends and we are suppose to be able to joke around after that.

The next thing that most leaders did wrong was power abuse. I know the feeling of being the top most powerful person in an organization, and i fear the consequences of every action and every step i’ve taken. Being the director does mean that you are special, as in you are the sole commander in this big army and everyword you passed down is to be an order. But i think it is not wise to use the power on personal gains. From the case of the autograph, i think you are misusing your power. Being stressed out as an emcee, and having some random fangirl in distress calling out for help does not qualify you to cut queue and get the autograph delivered, as this is especially unfair to your own committees who are working for you, mind you, without any wages, and are ordered not to even touch any signed autograph booklets. You may feel good doing the heroic act and having the position to do so, but you will not look good in the public’s eyes, stressing again that you are doing this on stage with everyone looking. This will definitely tarnish your image, and please do not deny and say that you did this at the spur of moment. With power, comes more responsibility. you should really know what you have done and the consequences, and not apologizing non-stop yet doing nothing to compensate.

I know that this is a place for you to lash out your emotions, and we have no rights to stop you from doing so. But i hope you are not writing this out to fish for sympathy from strangers or your friends who does not know anything happening within, because it will be unfair for those unsung heroes, the committees tolling beneath you and had no chance to voice out their own views. So, all in all, people will respect your apology when you truely understand your mistakes and you are really going to better yourself from now on. I’m hoping to see a better leader in you next time, and seriously, don’t be a spoil sport when ppl joke about your mistake. Acceptance, Betterment and Compassion should be the abc’s of our lives.

Edo: Trust me, the world won’t go against you for being confused :)

Again, read the last part again. Heck, do read everything again. Everything was fine, I even prepared a nice speech for all including these “unsung heroes”. But no, “Operation Terminate Edo’s Emotion” was successful. Anyway, who cares president thanks, right? Apparently I’m treated lower than any member. This is where, I felt betrayed, again. And do please start promoting your “ABC” to everyone.

” “Edo, do this, do that. Everyone, let’s go makan”, and I’m left alone for hours. Plus the fact that I had no one to go out with for dinner after that. ”

So, thats why you’re dinner alone that night….

Haih… I know EDO very well….

AND DON’T YOU DARE walking from bukit beruang to batu berendam when you sulking… again…

Well Edo,

I’ve been follow up this blog post since it’s published. This reply I type won’t get much attention just I wanna give alittle bit of opinion about it.

Initially I just thought of replying “stop being emo, the world doesn’t end there” but I guess I was wrong from your reply to Lisa’s comment.

You have always given me the identity of a funny and eccentric person. Being some one funny, eccentric and also a popular guy in MMU you know how much people will be gossiping about you. As the president of EMiNA you are expected to be a strong willed guy that’ll be able to be hammered with pressures. Of course I understand the “abuse” part you’ve replied. The fact is you are EDO. In your blogpost you state that “I’m trying to be a nice guy” does in fact invites more people to joke about you , of course you’ll be “looking” emo for awhile then forgive them. But, because you forgives them easily it’s implies that you are capable of taking the joke.

Back to the abuse part where you said you’re just trying to be nice, I’ll say “Don’t be nice then”. There’s a limit of how someone can play around jokes to you, once they’ve crossed the limit you just have to be serious about it.

Find the one who post your photos, make it a serious issue out of it. If it’s me that’s got into the photo problem I’ll take this matter to the STAD or SECURITY or CITS for violating and defame my personal identity. Since nexus forum is in fact under MMU’s domain I believe it’s is part of MMU’s responsibility to be involved. People will be talking that I’m being as ass out of it but, who cares cause they over step the border.

I remember the part you asking me to “impress” you on one of Emina’s project which I admit didn’t do well. It’s time that you have to “impress” people that you
are fcuking serious about this matter. Base on your replies to other’s comment I am pretty sure that you’ve seriously made your point. kudos.