The Passing

Someone who's more like a father to me than a grandfather

My very beloved grandfather passed away due to natural cause on 2nd March 2011.

I’m just putting here as a note here for now. I tried to write about this earlier but it seems that it’s really really hard to do so. I had a hard time to accept that he’s no longer around. I’ll write more about this great man next week. I promise.

Ok. I lied. I said, “next week” but due to complicated circumstances this post is completed much much much later.

Do forgive me, I had a very hard time writing this calmly. Call me emotionally weak, but I can’t simply stop crying in front of the computer every time I try to complete this post.

On 2nd March 2011, I had a very hectic day in the office. I received a 2nd warning letter from my boss for ridiculous reason without even knowing that I had been warned before. That afternoon my mom sent me a message from Melaka, saying that grandfather is no longer with us. It wasn’t really a shock for me, for that time at least. Knowing his current condition at that time, we knew that his time is coming soon.

I reached Melaka the hour later, speeding the Proton Waja at 180kph (shh, don’t let my mom know this or she’ll kill me) just to ensure that I reach there as soon as possible. Reached my grandparent’s house and it was crowded. Everyone including my family seems to be calm, no one was crying with extreme exaggeration like you see in most local dramas.

I aided the few others to prepare the burial process, from cleaning until placing him in his final resting place.

Grandfather

Among my mom side’s cousins, me and my brother were very close to him as we stayed under the same roof for a very very long time. Between me and my brother? My brother was a lot closer to him throughout his entire life with a huge gap. He literally took care of my grandfather especially during his final days.

My family stayed at my grandparent’s house until I was in high school. Since our father is mostly not around, grandfather was more like a father to us. More than that, it’s actually an awesomely IMBA guy, and we’ve witnessed his IMBAness many times.

When I was still young, I was quite an arsehole. I would beat the shit out of my brother for no apparent reason. Well this was when he was still physically smaller than me. Heh. When shit happens, the family will try to break up the fight. Everyone in the family would use the violent method, except for my grandfather. He’s more.. chillax when he deals with any situation.

There’s a lot of thing that I would like to talk about him, but I would save that for table talk session as it’s a lot more interesting to tell stories about his life verbally. I’m just not capable of expressing his awesomeness in written words. I tried, but I failed miserably.

This is the guy who made me pursue in things that I love. This is the guy who thought me on how to communicate with people well. This is the guy who thought me to treat others like how I wanted others to treat me. This is the guy who became my father when my father was not around. This is guy who I respected the most in my family.

There are many things that I wanted to achieve before he left us. I wanted him to see me to be a successful individual in life. I wanted to take him out somewhere. I wanted him to see my future wife. I wanted him to attend my wedding ceremony. And many more. That will never happen now, but I’ll still pursue my goals in life with the values that he thought me.

I love you, grandpa.

PS: I really really missed you.